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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

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morng started out fine...though sleepy but feeling good....
reached the og table...then received sms from 'susie' telling me you forgot to bring her file...i smsed her not to worry...and a whole lot of "thrills" followed...she became so flustered or...mebbe...blown up...can even see it on the sms..really shocked..din even blame her...juz told her not to worry..den she "you dun nid to worry bcos i am the one bringing and tidying and it looks like my fault!..."sent her another telling her i din blame her and tt we 3 ppl can share...then during gp..smsed her asking if i can meet her..tot her phone lag..so din reply...smsed xinying realised she went library...tot i wait 4 her 4 the time being...then realised she came...said hi..she tao me.....really angry..dun understand....though consciously i noe i din do anything wrong..but i feel like i'm guilty..really angry..smsed wee and eve....to try dissipate the anger...aiyoh thx eve ...then said a lot of stuff to the other like glenn and other ppl....said sai...kanasai....shit....even the voodoo doll thing came out..ryan heard and he was shocked...but the wah lau din come out...anyway..complained 2 a lot of ppl..but while saying i felt guilt after saying those..which meant i din mean it but just wanted to find channels to dissipate the anger...anyway...then slacked from 3.30 to 4.30...realised lao zhou din come....stand there like mad woman..realised can see library..kept thinking if she could see me..and gloating.anyway fnally at 4.15pm the junior came...got her no....but she din c the sms..anyway....went with her outside gym to teach her...then kevin told us to go in..oso realised susie came...really happy din go in..bt in the end missing zhongruan...so i went in..bleah..she still so cold..my god....really angry..but i kinda sleepy after stoning anyway 4 ppl sharing a pathetic pu..ha..after co..she left huffily and quickly....biang...dunno what 2 say....anyway rmbered i took a pujia then told her i couldn't open it spoilt then the others oso liddat..then she opened fine.....she left so quickly la....

in the car, was thinking abt it..really dunno what;s wrong..send her 2 emails while waiting 4 co to start "asking her to tell me what;s wrong" and " tt the junior took the pu so most likely we playing the songs so dun worry"..she replied none....

really dunno what 2 do....i described her as a "time bomb"...yeah i really dunno..i really dun feel tt i'm wrong....she dun understand me......i tot she did...dunno...anyway really puzzled....
while waiting 4 co 2 start...did a lot of absurb things...wallked across hte co room corridor like more than 5...waled up and down the stairs at arts centre ...once...sat on the toilet bowl of large cubicle for the longest time, stood in teh shower cubicle 4 a while...really pissed..then stood in front of hte ramp outside gym for quite a long time..this time...i really feel tt i'm wrong..anyway mum says tt it;s cos she thinks she did sth wrong..then put the self-inflictede anger on me..guess she;s rite...experience

anyway today during gp..really sianz.....hid in the corner on the pretext of smsing..act did nothing...every1 had sth to do..my group got sam and shu....dunno lar..today really unlucky..cos i din 'dream' last nite?..this yr really bad start...
rmbered ytd....spilled over the tin containing coffee meant 4 praying at the grass patch..dunno...

then
1. had fever missed the bio test maths 'test'
2. din get chem s paper stuff
......aiyoh

today played ball games..initially din get opportunity to touch..then got the chance....slipped like 3 times..the other times still okay...hit my entire right eye and neck..anyway use "dang" qiu as my "forte"...did tt..then at least sb was asking 4 me to do tt....realli happy ha...k

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